Where is my guru?

I am having the same old doubt and insecurities that always seem to come out and haunt me. I feel like I am in a stand still with photography. The noise in my head is telling me to quit, run, give up. The things I always do when the going gets tough. It's ridiculous. I think I need a life guru. I really need some insight to sort this mess out.

In an attempt to get a hold of things I have a meditation book and cd coming. I hope it helps. I hope I can just shut up and be.

It's fall here. As much of a fall as we can get. I got away last weekend. I had hoped it would help. It felt great to recharge. The weather was rainy. Life was good. Then I came home. Now I am a mess. A functioning mess... but a mess nontheless. Okay... I am getting sick of my own whining!!!!