Life interrupted

My updating has been lacking. I just haven't felt the need to write, nor had the time. I am feeling winter now. I can feel that slow sinking feeling I truly haven't felt bad, in a really long time. Just my normal moody self, but this is different. This is a feeling of no end in sight. I feel like everything is a wreck and has gotten out of control. It's really just superficial stuff, like housework and cooking. But I feel like I am failing at the whole housewife job. Everything just feels so doomed and ugly. I feel like winter isn't going to ever end. It's windy and horrid out. I am trapped in this house, with a 4 week old and a 22 month old. I hate that I feel trapped. This has been a happy time period, and something just switched on me. I am losing it.