I am all jazzed up on caffeine, per a headache. It has been a lazy Sunday for us. Adam watched Lily while I slept in until 9. I would say he watched Atticus too, but I don't count it considering he slept also. When I got up Adam went and worked on his pickup, while I dealt with the kids, and sat on my bum. Lily has been having so many little melt downs I just don't know what to do with them. I feel as if it's all for attention, but then I shower her with lot's of love and it seems to do nothing! I keep reminding myself that she turns two next month, AND she is a new big sister. At about one Lily got to go outside and play. She hasn't been able to do that for a week at least. I sat outside for a little bit also. It was so warm in the sun, but only if it was beaming straight on you. We can not wait until spring. I want to do so much outside. I am sick of wasting my time and life on this damn computer. I really need to find a better way to spend all of our time. The kids need better quality time. Adam made dinner for us all tonight. It was rather nice! While he was cooking I played some Modest Mouse, and Lily and I danced to it. She loved it. She's my music child though. A couple of days ago she sang the first chorus to 'Happy Birthday'. I am still so surprised at how much she is talking and how quick she is learning everything.
After dinner Adam pretty much fell asleep on the couch right away. Lily was a crazy woman, and I had a headache. It intensified so bad, that I thought I was going to get sick and could hardly hold my head up. It happened all within 10 minutes. I had to get in the shower. The shower is my comfort place when I get sick. I sat in there and let the steam takeover me. I had a morbid thought, the bathroom is probably the major spot for people to die in. In fact, I wouldn't doubt that is how I would. I go there for every ailment. Sometimes I even go there to just decompress. After a major dose of Tylenol and Dr. Pepper, I managed to get rid of the stupid headache. Now here I sit wide awake. Though it works, I do have a newborn, on an inconsistent feeding schedule. So in my caffeinated stupor, I have been seriously contemplating switching to cloth diapers. I have gone so far as to research patterns so I can make my own. It would be more of a day time at home sort of thing. It would save a lot of money though!
Tomorrow Adam leaves to go to Lincoln until Wednesday. He has orientation with his job. This will be the first time he'll leave since we've had Lily. We've left him here at the house a couple of times, but he's never left us. I am curious to see how he fairs. It will be odd for me not to have an adult conversation all day for three days! I can always go over to Mom's for some sanity. It's supposed to possibly be nice out so I hope I can try out the new tandem stroller with the kids.
It has been 6 weeks today, since I had Atticus. He started to fuss to eat a little bit ago, so I went and picked him up and brought him back to our chair. I looked down and he had a great big smile for me. I love those tiny reminders of how great motherhood really is. It's easy to get so caught up with everything. I can't believe how intense these feelings are with him. We bonded instantly. I think it had to do with the instant skin to skin we had at birth. With Lily I didn't have that, so I think that contributed to the later bonding time.
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