Life interrupted

My updating has been lacking. I just haven't felt the need to write, nor had the time. I am feeling winter now. I can feel that slow sinking feeling I truly haven't felt bad, in a really long time. Just my normal moody self, but this is different. This is a feeling of no end in sight. I feel like everything is a wreck and has gotten out of control. It's really just superficial stuff, like housework and cooking. But I feel like I am failing at the whole housewife job. Everything just feels so doomed and ugly. I feel like winter isn't going to ever end. It's windy and horrid out. I am trapped in this house, with a 4 week old and a 22 month old. I hate that I feel trapped. This has been a happy time period, and something just switched on me. I am losing it.

Life list

1. create 10 pieces of art
2. No more soda! (again)
3. live fearless
4. love to take pictures again
5. become a more honest person
6. develop a serious daily yoga practice
7. Get my art work and hang them on my walls.
8. learn salsa
9. travel to Egypt
10. have more fun with my husband
11. Learn to forgive myself for the past
12. Grow my hair out (again)
13. be healthy and enjoy life
14. eat a weed brownie
15. read 25 classics
16. save change in a jar and don't touch it until the next year
17. fly in a hot air balloon
18. Become self-confident
19. get my first tattoo
20. find myself again
21. Get a new bicycle
22. sell photos
23. wear scarves
24. get my husband to fall in love with me again
25. take care of my teeth
26. Surround myself with beauty